Inkmarks On Empty Dreams

Thinking about what it means for a girl to have feelings for another girl or another woman and she doesn’t know what to do or how to act upon them, I went back to basis : back to the first girl I loved. Well, actually she was a woman. She was and still is an University Professor, but back then she wasn’t my professor yet. In order to pass my entry exam I had to take a couple of economy private lessons  and that is how we met. From the first time I saw her I knew she’ll have an impact, she was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen, I was obviously very attracted to her  : she was and still is a beautiful blonde with hazel eyes, full lips and a magnificent body , but most of all she was very intelligent and intuitive. She used to wear blue contact lenses and that was very playful from her side. Our encounters were private, we used to laugh a lot and I learned a lot, yet nothing happen between us, as she was straight. Later on, after my passing entry exam, we kept in touch and durin...

[caption id="attachment_1933" align="alignnone" width="800"] 02 DE MAR - CADERNO 3 - 03c30210 - NLVL[/caption] Scent travels from the moment to the mind in the gathering of those touches in time. Sensing, scent and sentience—all come from the same Latin root: sentire , to feel. "The story is about the passion between two women, but does not impose flags. It is love without closed signs. These two women could be replaced by a man and a woman or two men. MEMORY OF PERFUME comes to love, as a verb. And love, as a verb, dispenses substantive, dispenses labels "(Rodrigo Fonseca, film critic, DE S. PAULO STATE).   The film is narrated by Montenegro itself, which through texts and songs takes the viewer along the plot. Two musicians, flutist and cellist Madalena Salles and  Janaína Salles, permeate and connect the scenes, enhancing the poetic and playful aspect of the film, like the soul of the characters. MEMORY OF PERFUME has the background theme the...

It is so easy to describe the feeling I have felt, that it even makes me laugh : it feels right to love another woman, it actually feels perfect and I felt fulfilled with the most beautiful feeling I ever head with butterflies in my stomach and head in the clouds seeing matting seahorses. After feeling absolutely fabulous and sublime, there comes confusion, especially at a young age when you’re supposed to dream about boys, yet you have a fantasy about your teacher, your best friend or your mother’s friend. A young girl, especially if she hasn’t got someone to talk to that has experienced the same things, can easily feel bad and wrong about her feelings and often tries to be with boys to prove she’s straight. If she’s not, she can go on or she changes her mind and experiences many types of loving a woman until she finds the right one that corresponds to her love or just loves her first. "I had always been attracted to girls. I remember having crushes [on girls] since the third gra...

In the center of the novel there is the lesbian love between Evelyn and Ann, not very much depicted, as the novel was published in 1964, unsure at first and ongoing, but in the end the real true thing and makes it a classic significant novel of the genre. It is also a political novel, as it speaks of the spreading of Casino’s throughout Nevada and America, the gambling interests involve politicians, the Mafia and somehow take control of some states, putting inhabitants in danger, victims of their own flaws : gambling. Jane Rule was a pioneer in having the power to write such a novel back then, she was a road opener and a beliver in change and love between women. The „Desert of the Heart” is the story of Evelyn Hall, an English university professor from California, who came to Reno, Nevada for a  quick divorce, yet she finds so much more. It’s the story of all the women back in the 1930's-1960’s that wanted a quick divorce went to Reno, some were strong like Evelyn and really wanted...

These are the experiences of some women, we are all different, yet sometimes, so alike, therefore, in the end, there it’s just one question : when a woman you know or one that you just met tells you she’s a lesbian or her friends do, what do you (straight lady or not) do? If you’re straight you’re just curious and have a conversation, if you don’t know your real feelings or sexuality you’re intrigued by her every move, look, smile or act....and a new journey to yourself begins. Beyond being curious or in search for your own sexuality, you can have real chemistry with another woman without having just a crush or a fling, you’re not just had too much too drink and you really feel attracted to her, would you have the courage to be in love with another woman? Or maybe you had these feelings before, but you didn’t dare to explore them. You have felt certain heats and hearts for your teacher, your mother’s best friend or a school colleague. You couldn’t explain those feelings and just went w...

  Federica and Marina live together since a few years. Their love story is at turning point. When Marina thinks their relationship is finally stable, Federica starts to be doubtful because of a few events. I love it when they deny some things that come with the age and how their mood changes, their relationships with their families  and the tough moments when a hard decision is to be made. Loved the bathroom scene You can watch the whole movie here (with English subtitles)   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FBN7CXIHW8Q

“My name is Lorenza , I come from Italy, I’m 25 years old and I’m in love with Ilenia, my girlfriend. I always thought to be heterosexual up to 20 years old, when I fell in love for the first time with a girl. It happened just when I finished high school and I went on a trip through Europe with some friends. There, I realized that my feelings for my friend Ilenia exceeded friendship and I realized I was in love with her. In a short time we became a couple, but I realized that I had a great obstacle to my happiness: my family. My parents are divorced and I have always lived with my mother. My father remarried and had another daughter, my step-sister which I was so attached. When my mother found out about my relationship with a woman, she was suffering from cancer and the world fell on me. I felt responsible for her unhappiness, I felt her biggest disappointment. Right now she began using an offensive language to contact me, refusing to accept me and my relationship. Every day was a stru...

It happens all the time for a lesbian to fall for a straight girl or woman : can be your best friend, can be your teacher or your boss. It's up to her in the end to choose what she wants. I love it when two straight girls fall in love. Below are some examples of lesbian women falling in love with straight women stories. “We never had sex, which is what made it so much sexier.” “I was leaving for New York City the next day. There was this girl, someone I’d been crushing on for YEARS, possibly the most beautiful girl I’ve still ever seen, in that never-gonna-happen-but-can’t-hurt-to-look kinda way. The night before my departure I was saying farewell to my friends and this goddess showed up to the bar professing that she had a crush on me too. Of course, I couldn’t let this sit. I pressed and I pressed and before I knew it we were making out in the middle of the bar. That is, before we were both unceremoniously kicked out. We never had sex, which is what made it so much sexier. We tal...

  Sentimentul ca ceva lipseste intr-o relatie cu un barbat, a inflorit in mintile si sufletele mai multor femei care si-au pus la indoiala apartenenta sexuala fara sa-si dea seama, ghidandu-se doar dupa sentimente, indeosebi in momentul in care au intalnit o femeie de care au fost atrase intelectual si fizic. De fapt, nu lipseste nimic intr-o relatie cu un barbat, ci cu o femeie sentimentele sunt corecte pentru ea, pur si simplu asa simte, iar mai tarziu isi da seama ca ea poate iubi pe deplin doar o femeie. Sunt atat de multe femei care „fac ce trebuie” , cel putin intr-o societate post comunista ca cea din Romania, si anume, trebuie sa se casatoresca, trebuie sa aiba copii (urmasi), sa si faca familia fericita (familia in care s-au nascut), ca sa indeplineasca si visele parintilor lor de a fi bunici, pentru a avea pozitia de sotie si mama in societatea noastra, inseamna un fel de prestigiu dincolo de o anume apreciere, venita din comunistul „mama eroina”. O femeie singura, trecut...