Inkmarks On Empty Dreams

When small  hometown prejudices go wild against same sex relationships, sometimes can cost you your job, if you want to make the true choice! ‘It would be better if you started looking for another job.’ I heard this much-anticipated statement in August of 2013. A resolution to my summer epic, ‘Love vs. fascism’. The title is not literal, but I like it. Love in this case is humanity and common sense, and fascism – homophobia. In the end, Roditeli Rossiyi [Parents of Russia], namely Timur Isayev , could start celebrating because I wrote a statement declaring that I was leaving School #56 in Magnitogorsk. And… I felt relief. A great weight fell from my shoulders, because the only way to save my job was to compromise my conscience. It sounds dramatic, but I can’t call it anything else. The whole story started in the beginning of June, when I wrote a comment in the group ‘Alliance of Heterosexuals for LGBT equality’ on the social network V Kontakte [a popular Russian alternative to Faceboo...

Robin & Jenna are getting married. Robin is excited beyond words; Jenna is plagued by panic attacks and struggles to write her vows. But when they arrive at their secluded fairy-tale venue sinister forces besiege them, threatening to tear them apart. Brides to Be is both a love story and a psychological thriller, a timeless romance and a haunted house. Skillfully mixing genres, it explores how doubt and fear can be imposed upon us and infect us from within, but only if we let it. "I’ll say right up front that it’s good, perhaps even great… This is the kind of economical, smart, Hitchcockian film that M. Night Shyamalan wishes he could make… Every element belongs, is necessary, and delights even as it unsettles… Not that Brides To Be is strictly a ghost story. It refuses to tell us exactly what is the source of trouble; or, more accurately, it embraces several possibilities, allowing conflict to emerge from multiple sources… This one deserves your money and time. "     ~...

I am anxious and nervous altogether in writing the review of this incredibly beautiful book,„Fingersmith” by Sarah Waters. It is, by far, the most exquisite book I have ever read, regarding the depth of the plot, the complexity of the characters and the richness of the language.  It’s a lesbian reference novel, but Mrs. Waters has created this plot that changes for so many twist along the way that makes you see the characters from many different angles and in so many different colors : I am in love with Sue, than I hate her, than I am in love with Maud, pity her, love her more, hate her, love Sue more and so on...I won’t disclose the whole plot and so, I’d rather not spoil the pleasure of reading. The complexity of the characters, their true nature, their fake selves, how they turn and return, how they are changed by love and fate forever and how they compose and decompose the depth of the plot, it never ceases to amaze me. Fingersmith it’s a dramatic novel from the Victorian era full ...

My world is a trembling shudder, a vulnerable candle in the wind, a whispering shadow through weeping willows. My mind is a trap of thoughts invaded by multicultural souvenirs of my memory. My heart is full of love, yet I don’t know how to share it! I may seem cold and lost for I have a lack of empathy. Everyone thinks I am dark when I am just silent. Words seem speechless and relentless to what I have to say. I may seem lonely when I am just abstract. Loneliness is a gift for the ones who know how to treasure it. In the devouring silence of my spirit there’s a deafening calling of knowledge. The air is unconsumed, yet there’s no breath left, for in my eyes the world is different, the world is numbers and graphics. I learned all this now, after 36 years of imperfect life in an imperfect world.   As unbelievable as it may seem I have many memories from my childhood. The firsts are related to toys. I had many toys, yet I had a big collection of robots. I could spend all my time with ...

„My last duchess” tells the sad story of the  beautiful and richest American heiress of the 1890’s (the Guilded age), Cora Cash (suggestive name) educated by her mother from early youth to have as only purpose in life marrying a ruined nobleman from Europe, especially Great Britain, in other words, the money from the New World would rebuild the castles and noble houses from the Old World. During the 1890’s, it was a habit that rich and beautiful heiress from the United States who’s parents made fortunes during short time : a couple of decades so they had no family history, used to buy themselves nobility titles like  duchesses or countesses  from Europe, especially Great Britain, marrying decadent British heirs from old families that lost their money from different reasons : bankruptcy, gambling and shallow women. So, the heiresses’ parents would buy the title for their daughters and grandsons and grand-daughters with the condition of rebuilding the old English castles and noble houses...

Tears for years, but with a happy ending. You also, must be grateful for your beautiful supportive family. “I grow up in a German village during the 80s. At age 5, I was able to formulate my wish to be born with a female body. But no: Everyday I woke up in the same boyish body. At school kids recognized me as different and my role as wimp was cemented. With 13 I read a magazine article about trans-sexuality. The author stated these people are not crazy. I felt relieved. At least I was not crazy, just different. One day alone at home I put on female clothing in the dark. I was 15. My sister appeared earlier than usual. She didn’t recognized my clothing but then she was shocked. Later my brother arrived and found my sister crying. He talked to her and he hasted to my room. He comforted me and tried to be my protective big brother. We were unable to cope this situation. The silent agreement was not to tell my parents about my situation. Years later I started studying in another town but ...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-l3v9_9-oU One of the boldest and sexiest dramas of the year, the new film by Canadian actor-director April Mullen ( Dead Before Dawn ) tells the story of an unexpected romance between two women whose passionate connection changes their lives forever. One of the boldest and sexiest dramas of the year, April Mullen's  Below Her Mouth tells the story of an unexpected romance between two women whose passionate connection changes their lives forever. Jasmine (Natalie Krill) is a successful fashion editor living with her fiancé, Rile (Sebastian Pigott). On a night out in the city with her best friend, she meets Dallas (Erika Linder), a roofer recently out of a relationship. Jasmine is taken by surprise when Dallas confidently hits on her; she turns Dallas down, but can't get her out of her head. Dallas continues her cool, self-assured advances. In a matter of days, Jasmine succumbs and the two women embark on a steamy affair. It feels like a fantasy ...